Fine, Blog You to the Face

Ok, so, here's the Earth. A pretty sweet Earth you might say.

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For serious...It's been a long time since my last blog, but I did manage to make it within my personal 5 month pledge at only 3.5 months! Hooray for me! Hooray for boobies!

So what's new? Well, on the personal front, I finally moved out! I moved into a house owned by my coworker/friend/honkey Jeremy down in "beautiful and exciting" Wadsworth, Ohio. Being off on my own is fresh, since there are no restrictions, but budgeting has been kinda rough at the start here, since you have no idea exactly how much stuff you need until the minute you need it, and even when I lived on my own at school, I never really had to deal with the stupid minute things that come up day-to-day. Toilet paper is a fine example. Let me tell you, don't run out of toilet paper and have to use a newspaper or magazine (not that I would know anything about that). Besides that, moving out has afforded me with unparalleled personal freedoms aka being able to bring a lady friend back to "my place" no longer entails either a.) sneaking around so as not to raise suspicions with my parents, or b.) simply praying that they won't be there.

Speaking of lady friends, things are going very well. We came to the conclusion that there are very slim hopes for anything truly long-term and resolved to have more fun. Being fair to both of us and what we're looking for in a relationship is much easier when you accept things for what they are, and also what they cannot be. The pressure just melted away and now I feel like I can be a better friend in every possible way. I can honestly say that "taking a step back" has been one of the best things for us...I look forward to seeing her so much now that she's not my "serious girlfriend." How fucked up is that? In reality, I think it's just the bee's knees, and my shrink agrees. Hey, that rhymes.

On the subject of shrinks (man, two b-e-a-yooo-tiful segues in a row, DINGER), I started seeing one recommended by someone at work to help me work through the problem minefield that I seem to create in my life and also to help me with my anxiety attacks. He's pretty fly for a white guy and despite paying him to talk to me (which is sorta awkward), we have a nice rapport and chatting with him has given me many new perspectives on various situations in my life, including the Leslie Scenario (a saucy band name), friends, telling the truth, my personal appearance, my school situation, and of course, work at Omnicare.

Oh Omnicare, why has thou forsaken me? By that of course I mean, why is Omnicare so cut-inducing? The answer is pretty simple. I've been there too long. I just passed my two year anniversary with the company (since the buyout) in December and I think I've pretty much gotten bored with my job and the situations that it presents. I've come to understand what my limitations are at work and it's painful to admit that you cannot change the things that are done so poorly and the truly small impact that you have, no matter what sort of effort exerted. Work used to be fun in a way. I looked forward to showing up and seeing Original Pocket, Cheyenne, Natalie, Dana, Spruce, Missy, McKeal, and the rest of the characters. Nowadays, it just seems like such a drag to go in and work. No slights to Sarah, Nat, Jess, Jeremy, Pocket II, and the other new people, but my excitement and ambitions are just fading away. I'm not sure what happened but it's sort of sad to think about. In a hilarious turn of events, just this past Saturday my evening helper, an older woman named Charlotte, asked me flat out if I used to be in love with Natalie. I guess I really was pretty obvious, but regardless, still very funny to be asked that question by a 50-something year old woman that I never talk to and barely ever see. And while I'm on the subject of Natalie, I just want to say here how happy I am that our friendship is back almost on the level it was before all the nonsense between us. She truly is a great friend and I'm glad she's back.

Gotta grind it out and pay the bills, but honestly, looking for something new might not be the worst idea, especially since I'm on a month-to-month lease and I could move nearby to wherever I might find a new job or maybe even a career.

Internet classes are loose. I made a career decision that might actually stick. I think I want to become a rep for a pharmaceutical company. It fits my skill set extremely well and would probably afford me the lifestyle that I am looking for in the future. I don't mind travel and making presentations is a strong suit for me. Just gotta finish the communications degree that I started 9 years ago. AWK. That being said, I actually got off my ass and filled out a FAFSA so I can afford school this fall, so maybe I'm getting somewhere.

I was thinking about going into details about my budgetary plans, since I actually have a plan that isn't "spend what you want when you want." I decided to wait for another day so that I can get this blog up before work. I might be more frequent, because I want to talk about God, the aforementioned budget, fantasy sports, and revisit one of the most important posts in this blog's history in the near future. For now, however...

Songs of the Second:
Panic at the Disco - Nine in the Afternoon
Vitamin String Quartet - Sugar, We're Going Down
Death Cab for Cutie - Transatlanticism (From the VAULT)

Word of the Week:
Gorlok